Today was a wonderful day. I started off working out at Fitness Express. I wrote about it under Healthy Revolution. But here I am now getting ready for bed – later than I wanted to be, but that’s okay. I talked with a good friend tonight. As I was listening to her, I realized how much I missed her. She lives quite a ways away. She’s one of those very close friends that I can share all my TMI’s with and not worry about what she will say or think. I miss calling her up and getting together and just hanging out with her. I have friends, but I have very few close friends. There are few people who know everything about what I went through with being a birth mother or being a step-parent. There are few people I share my deepest feelings with and I realize I need to begin to change that. I need to reach out and talk with people I want to have as friends. I need to call them and hang out with them. I need to share who I am, but I do not want to be hurt.
And this leads to my relationship with God. I don’t want to be hurt. God never garaunteed me I wouldn’t be hurt. In fact Christ clearly says in Luke 21: 12 & 17 But before all these things, they will lay their hands on you and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues and prisons. You will be brought before kings and rulers for My nmaes’ sake. And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake.
But I forget that it is not God who hurts me. When I do what God asks me to do, I end up putting myself out there. And inevitably I am hurt, but not by God. In fact God is waiting for me to come to Him about all that is happening in my life. He is waiting for me to listen to Him and the promises He has for me.
I forget that my relationship with Him is two way. I must seek Him out. He is already there waiting to hear me. It is I who must stop to listen for Him. And of course, I always need to read the next verse because it clearly says, But it will turn out for you as an occasion for testimony, & verse 18 But not a hair of your head shall be lost.
Do you find yourself doing the same thing? Do you find yourself forgetting the relationship that God is offering? Do you forget that He has a message for you? Do you forget that He wants to bless you abundantly? I do. I am ready for a revolution. I am ready to remember His promises for me. I am ready to put my Lord and Savior first. That means everything I do, I must do for the glory of God. I must hand everything over to Him. He has my life. That’s easy. The hard part is handing over the living of my life!!