God is clearly telling me to trust Him.  In the last two weeks ministry oportunities I have been interested in have become available.  One through Lydia House based on the Iowa side, and the other through Growth Ministries.  God keeps talking to me and opening doors and posibilities.  Then tonight, I am reading my Bible study and I am convicted.  John 5:40 But you are not willing to come to Me that you may have life.  It hits me like a ton of bricks.  I am not living my life.  I am going from one day blending into another day.  Yes I pray.  Yes, I go to church.  Yes, I attend a small group.  Yes, I read my Bible.  But am I really doing what God is calling me to do?  Am I the person He intended me to be?

Do I have a life?  This is where I am.  I am at the cusp of having a life He intended for me.  I am scared because I have always been a seed planter.  I am the one who quietly influences and talks to people and makes suggestions.  I plant the seed.  Early on I was upset that I didn’t get to see the fruit of my labor, but as I matured in my faith, I became very aware how important seed planting is.  But now, God is wanting me to complete the labor.  I am to be part of watering, and feeding and growing His ministry.  Just as I’ve gotten into the hang of being a seed planter, I am now called to do more.

Thank you Lord that you have given me a way to live my life beyond day to day.

Heavenly Father, you have someone out there right now who needs to know that walking with You is a joy.  You are life itself.  There is never a day where you are not present.  Surround the person who is reading this with Your words.  Open theire heart, unplug their ears, and take the shingles from their eyes so they might recognize You in their midst.  Give them the desire to find a place to worship You and accept You as their Lord and Savior.

In the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior,

Amen