God’s Bless

God is so good.  I went and worked out this morning and came back to weigh in on my scale, and it was down.  It his me like a ton of bricks; I am being faithful to God and He is blessing me.  No, it’s not just about the weight.  Before the new year came, I had time to really talk with God.  He made it clear that changes were going to happen in my life this year.  Change is coming, be faithful. 

This does not mean I sit back and do nothing and wait.  No, this means I have to follow God’s plan for me.  Funny thing is, it’s not always my plan.  Here is what I know God wants me to do:  Pray fervently, lose weight – hand over the eating to HIM, write abundantly.  Now, don’t get me wrong, I am a praying girl, but He’s asking me for more of the quiet, meditative prayer rather than the rush requesting prayers.  I exercise, but I have rebelled when it comes to food.  I allowed food to rule over me and I was losing the battle.  And of course I write, but this is writing beyond me.  This is writing to share.

God is good.  He wants to bless us, if we let Him.  I am ready to let Him bless me even more.  How about you?  Will you join me at His banquet table.

God is so good….

God is so good.  I went and worked out this morning and came back to weigh in on my scale, and it was down.  It his me like a ton of bricks; I am being faithful to God and He is blessing me.  No, it’s not just about the weight.  Before the new year came, I had time to really talk with God.  He made it clear that changes were going to happen in my life this year.  Change is coming, be faithful. 

This does not mean I sit back and do nothing and wait.  No, this means I have to follow God’s plan for me.  Funny thing is, it’s not always my plan. 

God is so good….

God is so good.  I went and worked out this morning and came back to weigh in on my scale, and it was down.  It his me like a ton of bricks; I am being faithful to God and He is blessing me.  No, it’s not just about the weight.  Before the new year came, I had time to really talk with God.  He made it clear that changes were going to happen in my life this year.  Change is coming, be faithful. 

My Beloved Daughter

I quiet myself and come into the presence of the Lord.  I feel His smile reach me.  It is so warm and loving.  I look into Christ’s face and ask Him, “What do you want me to do?”

Be still my child, my beloved daughter.  Be still and bask in my embrace.  I know all you are going through.  You are my beloved daughter, and you are precious to me.  I want you to know I love you no matter what.  Whether you listen to me, walk away, deny me.  There is nothing you could ever do that would stop me from loving you. 

These are the kinds of conversations I have with God.  This one is about me, and I am willing to share it.  Lately, when I come to Him, I ask Him what He wants me to do.  Sometimes the question is different, but this is the one that has been popping up more frequently.  And usually I ask Him what He wants me to write.  Today has been no different.  So someone out there needs to here this message.  Take the time to stop and not just come at God with requests, but stop and bask in His presence.   Isn’t that what we want with our own children, spouses, partners, loved ones?  Don’t we just want them to bask in the love we have for them?  That’s what God wants for you today.  He is calling you, beloved child.

It Begins

I am now beginning to feel the time crunch.  I look at my calendar for just what I have to get done, and it is filling fast.  Yet at the same time, I know God is calling me and preparing me for something more.  But what if I don’t finish?  It happens often.  I start something and I don’t finish.  I think – no, I know – it’s because I try to do it all on my own, without God.  He starts me on a path, and I then decide I know what to do.  Or I come to a tree trunk thrown in my path, and I decide to try to move it my way.  God wants me to do it His way all the time.  This is my revolution for the year.  God is in every moment.  My focus must be on God.  He needs to be the air I breathe and the water I drink.

This is rushed tonight because I have had so much to do in a short time.  But I am choosing to be faithful to God.  He wants me to write, so here I am writing.

Trust Me

God is clearly telling me to trust Him.  In the last two weeks ministry oportunities I have been interested in have become available.  One through Lydia House based on the Iowa side, and the other through Growth Ministries.  God keeps talking to me and opening doors and posibilities.  Then tonight, I am reading my Bible study and I am convicted.  John 5:40 But you are not willing to come to Me that you may have life.  It hits me like a ton of bricks.  I am not living my life.  I am going from one day blending into another day.  Yes I pray.  Yes, I go to church.  Yes, I attend a small group.  Yes, I read my Bible.  But am I really doing what God is calling me to do?  Am I the person He intended me to be?

Do I have a life?  This is where I am.  I am at the cusp of having a life He intended for me.  I am scared because I have always been a seed planter.  I am the one who quietly influences and talks to people and makes suggestions.  I plant the seed.  Early on I was upset that I didn’t get to see the fruit of my labor, but as I matured in my faith, I became very aware how important seed planting is.  But now, God is wanting me to complete the labor.  I am to be part of watering, and feeding and growing His ministry.  Just as I’ve gotten into the hang of being a seed planter, I am now called to do more.

Thank you Lord that you have given me a way to live my life beyond day to day.

Heavenly Father, you have someone out there right now who needs to know that walking with You is a joy.  You are life itself.  There is never a day where you are not present.  Surround the person who is reading this with Your words.  Open theire heart, unplug their ears, and take the shingles from their eyes so they might recognize You in their midst.  Give them the desire to find a place to worship You and accept You as their Lord and Savior.

In the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior,

Amen

Relationship

Today was a wonderful day.  I started off working out at Fitness Express.  I wrote about it under Healthy Revolution.  But here I am now getting ready for bed – later than I wanted to be, but that’s okay.  I talked with a good friend tonight.  As I was listening to her, I realized how much I missed her.  She lives quite a ways away.  She’s one of those very close friends that I can share all my TMI’s with and not worry about what she will say or think.  I miss calling her up and getting together and just hanging out with her.  I have friends, but I have very few close friends.  There are few people who know everything about what I went through with being a birth mother or being a step-parent.  There are few people I share my deepest feelings with and I realize I need to begin to change that.  I need to reach out and talk with people I want to have as friends.  I need to call them and hang out with them.  I need to share who I am, but I do not want to be hurt.

And this leads to my relationship with God.  I don’t want to be hurt.  God never garaunteed me I wouldn’t be hurt.  In fact Christ clearly says in Luke 21: 12 & 17 But before all these things, they will lay their hands on you and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues and prisons.  You will be brought before kings and rulers for My nmaes’ sake.  And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake.

But I forget that it is not God who hurts me.  When I do what God asks me to do, I end up putting myself out there.  And inevitably I am hurt, but not by God.  In fact God is waiting for me to come to Him about all that is happening in my life.  He is waiting for me to listen to Him and the promises He has for me.

I forget that my relationship with Him is two way.  I must seek Him out.  He is already there waiting to hear me.  It is I who must stop to listen for Him.  And of course, I always need to read the next verse because it clearly says, But it will turn out for you as an occasion for testimony, & verse 18 But not a hair of your head shall be lost.

Do you find yourself doing the same thing?  Do you find yourself forgetting the relationship that God is offering?  Do you forget that He has a message for you?  Do you forget that He wants to bless you abundantly?  I do.  I am ready for a revolution.  I am ready to remember His promises for me.  I am ready to put my Lord and Savior first.  That means everything I do, I must do for the glory of God.  I must hand everything over to Him.  He has my life.  That’s easy.  The hard part is handing over the living of my life!!

The Continuation of Me

Okay, another year is finally here.  What will it hold for me?  I am waiting patiently for God to let me know what I am to do.  Well, actually, He has already told me what to do.  I am to write, write, write.  There is something He is preparing me for, but I don’t know what it is yet.  Have you ever had God given you a direction to take in your life and you don’t want to take it.  That’s what I have been fighting for the past 2 years.  I am scared.  I have never been one to shrink away from adventure and change, and yet here I am, not wanting to change my life as it is right now.  It is easy and comfortable, and if my life changes, doesn’t that mean it will change my family’s life?

So here I am starting off my year with the direction God has called me to go.  Not only am I writing, but I am going to become healthier this year, lose the weight.  Once I was paid at the end of December, I joined Fitness Express.  Then I found out about a contest on Channel 4 News, WHBF, New Year, New You.  It was the opportunity to join Fitness Express and not only have membership in the gym but be part of Total Solutions: Thin and Healthy.  I did not make the top three, but because I entered, I was able to get a great discount.  So I am now on a journey to lose weight.

As I sat there talking to the young woman signing me up, I was excited and ready to go.  But when she told me I could be at 140 by September, I got scared.  It is hard for me to wrap my mind around being that small.  It means I will have to change parts of me.  I will have to change!!  If I don’t like how I am right now, it’s up to me to change me.  The last time I looked, there was no fairy god mother waiting to make all of my dreams come true.  But isn’t that the great thing about dreams – when you are the one that works for them, they mean more and are that much sweeter.

God wants to make my dreams come true.  This time, I’m not going to back down.  This time I am going to follow Him and step out in faith.  Journies.  That’s what life is all about.  I hope you will join me.

Beginning

I started this blog to hold myself accountable for the path God is giving me to travel.  What better way to be accountable than to make it public.  I hope you enjoy what you read.  Most of all, I hope you are able to relate to my journies, both the good ones and the bad ones.