Faith

Spinning into God

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I love my spinning class.  Yesterday I was looking down at the rotating front silver wheel of the LiveStrong stationary bike I was riding, and I realized why I felt so close to God.  While I am riding, I don’t have to think.  My mind thoughts begin to dissolve, and all the outworldly parts of me are stripped away.  What is left is my soul ready to talk to and listen to God.  I am left with no thoughts.  My mind is clear.  There are no worries.  There is no “to do” list.  It’s just me and the silver tire rolling.

It’s in the quiet that I meet and find God.  He is powerful and joyful and gentle.  I am surrounded by love and grace.  There is nothing better than sitting at the feet of my Lord.  It is in this moment I understand that I am a child of God.  He loves me unconditionally.  He wants to bless me.  He wants me to attain what He has planned for me.  And in that small quiet moment, I am ready to do all He has for me to do.

Then I am pulled back into my class, moving onto the next phase, holding onto the remenants of the still, quiet space of God.  I hold onto it as I move through my day.  I remind myself that God is in all that I do and don’t do.  It is time that I step out and complete the tasks God has for me to accomplish.  Thank you Lord Jesus for saving me and providing me grace.  May I share that grace with others.

Relationship

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Today was a wonderful day.  I started off working out at Fitness Express.  I wrote about it under Healthy Revolution.  But here I am now getting ready for bed – later than I wanted to be, but that’s okay.  I talked with a good friend tonight.  As I was listening to her, I realized how much I missed her.  She lives quite a ways away.  She’s one of those very close friends that I can share all my TMI’s with and not worry about what she will say or think.  I miss calling her up and getting together and just hanging out with her.  I have friends, but I have very few close friends.  There are few people who know everything about what I went through with being a birth mother or being a step-parent.  There are few people I share my deepest feelings with and I realize I need to begin to change that.  I need to reach out and talk with people I want to have as friends.  I need to call them and hang out with them.  I need to share who I am, but I do not want to be hurt.

And this leads to my relationship with God.  I don’t want to be hurt.  God never garaunteed me I wouldn’t be hurt.  In fact Christ clearly says in Luke 21: 12 & 17 But before all these things, they will lay their hands on you and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues and prisons.  You will be brought before kings and rulers for My nmaes’ sake.  And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake.

But I forget that it is not God who hurts me.  When I do what God asks me to do, I end up putting myself out there.  And inevitably I am hurt, but not by God.  In fact God is waiting for me to come to Him about all that is happening in my life.  He is waiting for me to listen to Him and the promises He has for me.

I forget that my relationship with Him is two way.  I must seek Him out.  He is already there waiting to hear me.  It is I who must stop to listen for Him.  And of course, I always need to read the next verse because it clearly says, But it will turn out for you as an occasion for testimony, & verse 18 But not a hair of your head shall be lost.

Do you find yourself doing the same thing?  Do you find yourself forgetting the relationship that God is offering?  Do you forget that He has a message for you?  Do you forget that He wants to bless you abundantly?  I do.  I am ready for a revolution.  I am ready to remember His promises for me.  I am ready to put my Lord and Savior first.  That means everything I do, I must do for the glory of God.  I must hand everything over to Him.  He has my life.  That’s easy.  The hard part is handing over the living of my life!!

The Continuation of Me

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Okay, another year is finally here.  What will it hold for me?  I am waiting patiently for God to let me know what I am to do.  Well, actually, He has already told me what to do.  I am to write, write, write.  There is something He is preparing me for, but I don’t know what it is yet.  Have you ever had God given you a direction to take in your life and you don’t want to take it.  That’s what I have been fighting for the past 2 years.  I am scared.  I have never been one to shrink away from adventure and change, and yet here I am, not wanting to change my life as it is right now.  It is easy and comfortable, and if my life changes, doesn’t that mean it will change my family’s life?

So here I am starting off my year with the direction God has called me to go.  Not only am I writing, but I am going to become healthier this year, lose the weight.  Once I was paid at the end of December, I joined Fitness Express.  Then I found out about a contest on Channel 4 News, WHBF, New Year, New You.  It was the opportunity to join Fitness Express and not only have membership in the gym but be part of Total Solutions: Thin and Healthy.  I did not make the top three, but because I entered, I was able to get a great discount.  So I am now on a journey to lose weight.

As I sat there talking to the young woman signing me up, I was excited and ready to go.  But when she told me I could be at 140 by September, I got scared.  It is hard for me to wrap my mind around being that small.  It means I will have to change parts of me.  I will have to change!!  If I don’t like how I am right now, it’s up to me to change me.  The last time I looked, there was no fairy god mother waiting to make all of my dreams come true.  But isn’t that the great thing about dreams – when you are the one that works for them, they mean more and are that much sweeter.

God wants to make my dreams come true.  This time, I’m not going to back down.  This time I am going to follow Him and step out in faith.  Journies.  That’s what life is all about.  I hope you will join me.